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Hey! I am Mariem. I was born in Egypt, Alexandria. My date of birth is: 4/8/2007 I am studying at STEM Schools. it was a long journey to be a student in this school, and I made it! I am in grade 12. my academic interests are physics. mechanics and computer science. my hobbies are journaling, reading, watching movies/series, travelling, learning new languages, graphic design and I am also interested in tech like coding and this stuff. my nickname is meme. My MBTI is INTJ. I am someone who love nature and very ambitious about my future. I love trying new things and explore places. I love hiking, meditation and watching sunset. I have a lot of dream destinations for example. Canada, Switzerland, Germany, Japan, Saudia Arabia and some islands like Bahama's island. I didn't decide my career yet, but I am looking for Mechatronics Engineering because it binds between electricity and robotics, and I am really interested in this kind of studies. I also love learning About Astrophysics and cosmology Because I have attended a summer program by Standford university that talks about these topics. finally, I hope to get a scholarship in engineering major.
A Polite Forgery
Jul 02, 2026 1 week agoThe sharp tang of vinegar and old dust always meant one thing: someone's history was rotting away. Nineteen-year-old Maya sat under the harsh light of her basement workshop, holding a scalpel with the steady grip of a surgeon. In front of her lay a water-damaged portrait from the 1940s. The canvas flaked badly, dropping tiny flecks of blue paint onto her black table like dry skin. Maya didn't restore art because she loved beauty. She did it because canvas never lied to you. Unlike people, it stayed perfectly still while you tried to fix what was broken. Her phone buzzed on the metal table, the vibration making her blade slip by a fraction of a millimeter. A text from her brother: “We sold the house. Mom's things are in boxes on the curb. Come if you want anything.” Maya didn't text back. Her hands simply pressed the blade harder into the wooden edge of the frame. She felt a cold; familiar knot tightens in her chest. She didn't want those boxes. Her family had spent years treating memories like useless clutter, cleaning out rooms the very second someone walked out the door, as if wiping away the physical evidence could somehow erase the emptiness left behind. They called it "moving on." Maya called it cosmetic surgery. She looked down at the portrait. To anyone else, the ragged tears in the corner were just damaged. To Maya, it was an entrance. Three weeks later, Maya was hunched over a rare, leather-bound diary brought in by an elderly man whose eyesight was failing. Her job was to carefully separate pages that had fused together from decades of damp humidity. With a heated spatula and infinite patience, she pried open two pages near the very back. A small, pressed flower—a purple violet—slid out, brittle and dry as ash. Next to it, written in faded, scratchy ink, were the words: “I spent my whole life trying to be quiet so they would love me. Now, I am just invisible.” The words stripped away Maya's armor. She stared at the ghostly ink, her breath catching tight in her throat. Looking at her own hands, stained with archival glue and charcoal dust, she realized she had been hiding in this dim basement for the exact same reason. She was trying to be invisible too. That afternoon, the elderly owner came back to pick it up. He peered at the restored, perfectly flattened pages through his thick glasses. "You made it look brand new," he smiled, tapping the clean leather. "Like the damage never even happened." Maya looked at the book, then straight into the man's eyes, which were cloudy with age. She noticed the deep lines on his face—creases carved by years of laughing, crying, and just surviving. Yet, he wanted his book to be a flawless lie. The frustration she usually kept locked safely behind her professional smile suddenly broke open. "Why do you want it to look new?" Maya asked, her voice cracking just a bit in the quiet shop. The man blinked, taken aback. "Well... because it's clean now. The stains are gone." Maya slowly slid the book across the counter, her index finger resting right on the cover. "The stains are the only proof that someone actually lived through those pages," she said softly. "If we wash away every single scar, we aren't saving the story, sir. We're just committing polite forgery." The man stared at her, his mouth opening slightly as the weight of the words landed. The silence stretched out between them until the ticking of the workshop clock sounded like a heartbeat. He looked down at his own wrinkled hands, then back at the book. He didn't argue. He just took the diary, his thumb slowly tracing a corner she had intentionally left slightly frayed—a soft look of sudden understanding dawning in his eyes. That night, Maya didn't go back to her safe basement. She drove through the rain to the old house. The boxes were still sitting there on the curb, soaked through by the evening mist under the dim streetlights. She knelt right on the wet asphalt, letting her expensive coat ruin in the dirt, and pulled open the flaps of the first box. Inside were her mother's old recipe cards, written in a shaky cursive, heavily stained with grease, spilled coffee, and vanilla extract. These weren't pristine archives; they were the messy footprints of a life fully lived. Maya picked them up, not with disgust or the old anger, but with the reverence of a curator holding a masterpiece. The world outside was completely obsessed with perfection, with clean slates and empty, sterile rooms. But looking at the grease stains on the paper, Maya finally understood survival isn't about being flawless. It is about letting the world leave its mark on you. She rubbed the rough, weathered edge of the paper between her thumb and forefinger. For the very first time, the imperfections didn't feel like trash, or a painful reminder of what she had lost. It felt like a quiet, final peace. She packed the boxes carefully into her car. She wasn't trying to fix the past anymore. She was just ready to keep it.
When Friendships Become Ghosts
Jul 30, 2025 11 months agoLauren always believed that friendships are long-lasting, she thought she would never meet new friends or either lose them, just she and her junior friends. How innocent she was, she just believed that friendships are neat with predictable roads, but she came to realize that friendships are far messier than any map. In all her connections, she felt the weirdness through every connection she'd ever made. It's not about how her friendships were good or bad, but it was about the strange, shifting nature of human bonds themselves. It all started when Lauren finished her final exams of grade 9. She celebrated with her friends and took photos but after that it all changed, Lauren moved to a new high boarding school, she left her friends, but She held onto them, sending occasional messages into the emptiness. They seldom started a conversation in return, she felt a hollow ache, a tightening knot, a sudden chill. The insidious chill of fading memories began to seep in. One day, Lauren found herself simply staring at her phone. The message bubbled five days ago. "Remember that time we...?" No 'read' receipt. A strange ache in her chest. She started to believe that they had forgotten about her. How did the ease of shared lunches morph into the uncomfortable quiet of unfamiliar faces, a tacit admission that they have never met. While Lauren was scrolling on her phone, she stared at Kezia's new haircut, the unfamiliar curve of her smile. The girl who was once a mirror, reflecting shared jokes and whispered secrets, now felt like a stranger dressed in a familiar face. One day she met up with her friend Ameli, Lauren sips her coffee, listening to Ameli talk about crypto and NFTs. Lauren nods, tries to look interested, but inside she just feels lost. They used to talk about comic books and new albums of TV girl. In summer holiday Lauren started learning German and after finishing her first A1 level, the academy published that they will hold a competition, when she arrived she was nervous, she didn't know any people there except her friend Jessy which in grade 12 and she recommended this academy to Lauren, the competition started and all participants were divided into teams, Lauren was the only girl in the team there were boys which in her current studying year and some in their twenties, Confusion morphed into friendship. On her team, Elvin, who was about her age, showed unexpected kindness, and their collaboration flowed effortlessly. They laughed and glided, winning a victory. By the end of the day, a happiness she hadn't experienced in a long time surged inside her, a deep intense appreciation for these passing people. However, the excitement faded rapidly, substituted by a profound insight. This strong connection was formed out of a single person's passion, mutual experience, a soft joke, a victorious high-five following their success, that meaningful look exchanged when something significant occurred. She only knew his name, no way to find him beyond this brief intersection. He would remain a vivid ghost, a perfectly crafted moment in time that would never expand, a beautiful 'what if' held in the fragile chamber of her memory. One day, Lauren received news that her friend Maisy, her old school friend, had passed away, Lauren stood, a cold wave washing over her. Maisy. A name, now a void. A surge of faded memories, sharp and painful, compelled her towards a dusty box in her closet, she started to read Maisy's letters, she read one letter that say “please come back and sit next to me don't sit in the first desk! Lauren started crying. She couldn't stop the drops falling from her eyes. Among them, a crudely drawn Barbie birthday invitation: 'Come to my birthday! I'll be glad if you came and stayed with me, don't worry, I will bake the cookies!' The words, childish and innocent, tore at her. Maisy, gone? They were playing together in the yard. She also started to scroll in their old chats. There were silly photos of their video call, some jokes and recipes of natural face mask. With Maisy gone, not only are new memories impossible, but the existing shared memories become strange. She feels the subtle shifts in her other friendships without Maisy as a common link like threads loosening or colors fading in the absence of a central dye. Lauren closed the dusty box, a quiet, desperate whisper escaping her lips " I wish you weren't going, I wish you would stay, stay forever” Friendships are weird. Lauren likes her friends, a few have come and gone. Some of the friendships felt a bit transactional, but a lot of them feel pretty real. She doesn't want to lose any of them, but she thinks at some point she will outgrow them. And they will outgrow her too. I guess when that happens, she will just find new friends, disconnected from the ones she used to have. She just hopes that if/when it does happen, it doesn't hurt too much.
How beautiful it is to be human
Jul 30, 2024 1 year agoIn December, on some cold and rainy days. I was sitting on dusty shelves at a kind of old store. I see people enter and leave the store every day. Until she came with her mother. She was consulting me. she said, mum! I want this one. And here is my story begins. Hey!! I am Eddie. I am just a teddy bear in the human world. I will not forget that day when I arrived at Charlie's home. It was a home of lovely family. It was a family of four members. Charlie, Rachel, jake and Lydia. I was sitting at Lydia's room. She was taking me whenever she is going. Her room was utterly cozy especially her soft blanket. One day, I was with Lydia in the garden. There was a snow crystal that was falling down on her slowly. Until I heard a voice that saying out loud, Lydia!! Come here the dinner is ready! I observed something when we got into home. There was a beautiful smell of fresh bread coming from the kitchen. I was sitting with Lydia and her family. They were eating and having fun. The vibrations emanating from their chests were unfamiliar yet strangely comforting. Their eyes seemed to sparkle with a joyful energy I couldn't quite comprehend. After dinner, everyone went to bed because Lydia and jake have to go to school tomorrow. In Lydia's room there were posters everywhere on walls she was hanging a vision board with her goals and dreams. She wants to be an astronomer. She was spending hours researching astronomy and discussing theories with enthusiasm. She always loved learning things about space and universe. And she always wondered if there is another earth in other galaxies that humans live in or not. In the next day I was sitting on the sofa, and I suddenly I saw a dog running towards me, but he was cute. Charlies' family was having a pet which is a lovely dog. Rachel always loved her dog. She was very kind to him and played with him. After Lydia and jake came from school they ate lunch with the family and after that they headed in their rooms. Lydia had a great skills and hobbies. Lydia's fingers danced across the canvas; her eyes focused intently on the masterpiece taking shape. I love the way she can draw and the way she holds her pencil, her vibrant colors of her drawings and being creative at her drawings. At once she decided to draw me and it was absolutely beautiful! At night the family decided to go out to smell some fresh air and engaging in joyful revelry. And of course, Lydia took me with her. I was surprised when I saw the streets and people. I saw other families, couples, friends and diversity in relationships and all of them were Facinating. They went to a place to drink something hot to keep them warm. Lydia took hot chocolate. I loved the smell of hot coco and how Lydia was holding the cup with her hands to keep herself warmer. On our way back home. It was raining. Everyone was running and holds an umbrella. But I was enjoying the smell of rain when it hits the dusty roads. After years everything changed. I observed Lydia and jake growing. It was magical thing for me to see someone I live with grows in front of my eyes. It was Lydia's the seventeen birthdays. Her family was organizing everything to surprise her, and they invited her friends. Lydia was out and when she came, they surprised her saying. Happy birthday!! She was very happy with the gifts, but I felt that there something wrong with her and I was right. When the birthday ends, and everyone left. She was sitting in her room, and she was sad because her best friend didn't come. It was my first time to see Lydia sad like this way. I figured that the absence of a loved one, even for a seemingly trivial reason, can cause significant emotional distress. But after this sadness her best friend call her, and she explained why she didn't come. And after this call her spirit had raised honestly. And she suddenly hugged me. There was a warmth of this hug. Jake always loved playing guitar. He was playing it since he was 11 years, jake was having a competition of playing guitar. He was very nervous because he trained for this competition very hard, and it meant a lot to him. His family went to the competition with jake to encourage him. When we arrived, he was nervous because he was fearing from failure. But Charlie tried to calm him down saying, “there is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure! After these words jake has encouraged and he played confidently. He was amazing playing this guitar. And he won the first place! He deserved it. From the dusty shelves to the heart of a home. I've witnessed life unfold in its myriad hues. Joy, sorrow, hope, and fear - a tapestry woven with every human thread. In Lydia's laughter and tears, in Jake's triumphs and anxieties, I've glimpsed the depth and complexity of the human soul. Though I am but an inanimate object, I carry within me the echoes of their lives, a testament to the extraordinary nature of being human.
