The tin was rusted at the seams, lighter than a slice of bread, and it was the only thing in our house that survived being sold twice. My father tried to trade it for kerosene the year the mines closed. My uncle tried to trade it for train fare the year he left for the city. Both times, my grandmother walked to wherever it had gone and walked back with it tucked under her cardigan, saying nothing, as if she'd only stepped out to check the mail. Inside were three hundred and twelve sunflower seeds — "small suns," my grandmother called them, waiting for permission to happen. I know because I counted them once, furious, certain she loved them more than she loved me. That was the winter the money changed its face twice and was worth less each time it did. We ate what we grew and grew less of it every year. I was nine, and I thought my grandmother was cruel for refusing to eat the seeds the week we lived on borrowed flour. "Why won't you just eat them?" I asked her, when hunger made me brave enough to accuse her outright. She didn't look up from her mending. "Because they are not seeds, Ana. They are next year." "Next year won't feed us tonight." "No," she agreed. "Tonight will have to feed itself." The neighbors thought grief had loosened something in her. My grandfather hadn't come back from the border two winters before, and grief does strange things to people, they said, twisting their dish towels tighter than they needed to. Mrs. Kovač told her plainly that a woman alone could not afford sentiment. My grandmother only smiled and offered her a cup of the tea that wasn't really tea — just hot water with a memory of mint in it. When the frost broke, she didn't plant potatoes like everyone else. She walked to the far end of our field, where the soil was too full of stones for anything sensible, and planted all three hundred and twelve seeds in a slow spiral, murmuring under her breath the whole time. I thought it was a song. It was her counting, so she wouldn't crowd them. Everyone else spent that summer arguing over turnip yields. Our spiral grew green, then rough, then taller than my shoulder, then taller than my father, rattling like paper in every wind that came down from the hills. I stopped being angry sometime in July, though I never said so. I told her the stalks were good windbreaks instead, which also happened to be true. By September we had forty sunflowers taller than the church door, heads heavy and dark, ringed in gold: a field of small suns, finally ready. My grandmother cut exactly enough seed for our own winter and set the rest aside in paper twists. Then, before light, she walked to Mrs. Kovač's gate and left one there without a note. I followed her, ten years old and outraged that we were giving away food when we lived on turnip peel ourselves. She left twists at six more gates before the village woke. At the seventh, I finally understood. This wasn't generosity. It was arithmetic. Years before I was born, a harvest had failed badly enough that half the village had eaten its own seed grain to survive, ours included. Every year since, my grandmother had been quietly replanting what fear had made people swallow — one gate at a time — so no single winter could ever again decide a whole spring. She never once called it that. She called it "tidying the field." A year later, six gardens bloomed sunflowers instead of turnips — small, uneven copies of ours. The year after that, eleven — including, at last, Mrs. Kovač's, who never mentioned the seeds and never needed to. By the time I was twenty, the whole valley turned gold every August, and almost no one remembered why. A few of us did the counting. My grandmother is gone now. The tin isn't. It sits on my windowsill in a city she never saw, and every August I fill it with three hundred and twelve seeds — no more, no less — though I don't yet know whose gate I'll leave them at. I only know that somewhere, hungry and proud and certain no one is watching, someone is deciding whether to eat their future. I'd like to be the reason they don't have to.