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Im Frankie!! Im 16 and I have 7 cats and a dog, i love gore and thriller movies, netflix originals are also so good?? Anyways theres not much else to say about me :))
I almost lost to my weight
Jan 13, 2018 6 years agoMy life most defenitly wasnt the hardest, I have a loving mom and dad, along with supporting siblings. I grew up with many friends and was incredibly sociable. As I got into 5th grade I became depressed and started experiencing panic attacks. For a year my only release was self harm, every night was the same, I would lock myself in my room and cut or burn my skin. I hated everything about myself. But I then found a thinspo tumblr account, it was filled with skinny girls, diet plans, and just a lot of self depreciation. My addiction started off with exercising moderately, i would go for a run or do sit ups every now and then, but after months of no progress I started restricting my food intake. I would write down every calorie I consumed in a journal i hid under my bed, i started to see results so i restricted more, until i started to get stressed over my water weight. At that point I started eating 300 calories or less and exercising for 2 hours every day, and i got a rush from it, i loved being constantly hungry and sore from over working myself. During this is collapsed multiple times and even shook uncontrollably at times, i had to wear layers in the spring because I would freeze if i didn't. When i started i weighed about 120 lbs, after 2 years i weighed 87 lbs, even though i was stick thin I hid it so well my parents had no idea. I was on my way to the grave and i didnt care because i needed my bones to show, to me they were beautiful. After another year of fluctuating up and down, never getting lower than 87 lbs, i started counseling and now im here 3 years later, 113 lbs and even though i still want to be shockingly skinny im in the right mind place to kick those thoughts. Thank you for reading my story
