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The process of being an Idol to your loved one
Jan 02, 2024 4 months agoI have all the time assumed that it is ok even if you are not perfect or idol to your loved ones. All the days I have spent are the simple proof why we should be a role model at least to one of our tight knit family member. Being a mother not a role you can simply play where you will do all the part that are required from you. Although some people would not agree with me, I do believe if we want to rise bright fearless future of our children with strong unbreakable personality we should be the top priority in their young age. As I have experienced, it was quite dilemma how to treat with the baby and make sacrifices that world would wants us to do for our children. But the thing is that what I am learning through the years of my expertise as much I was drown to my daughter as far I hold myself back to be the person that she wants to see. And I realized I should not devote myself to her by sacrificing but to take up a role she would love to see me. After that moment, I am urging myself to overcome my fear and push up my boundries and get things done to seem fearless although things get so tough to some extent. For instace, when I have decided to get over from the toxic realtionship that I used to be in for years after giving a birth my bright shiny tiny star. For a while I assumed that she will not be witnessing or experiecing that disfuncional relationship that I was in. Therefore, after her misbehavioural pattern in her early age revealed that I distined her to witness all those pains and regrets that I have been through. That was the reason why I have decided to end up the reationship that could possibly intoxicate her if I would continue that way. That was the first decision why I was willingly taken up to bring up her in healthy and stress free life. To my surprise It was eye-opening experience that cut close to the bone which forced me to take the lead to be there for her no matter what. As you can guess there were other series of actions I should have taken further, but I was simply freezed to commit and kept working without any intentions of pushing myself into the pool of challenges. By taking some time off, currently I feel an obligation to cross the boundaries where I will be able to throw my self under the bus and see the result whether I will be able to accomplish whatever I want for myself. At the same time I am feared of not being able to meet my daughter's expectations if I fail. That is to say I am in my critical period of choosing between whether I should stay at the same spot where I feel my comfort in depth or quiting my job to look for the challenge which can lift me into the next level. By choosing my trues sentence I would be able to show my daughter either to be pussy and let the fears win me, or be fearless and do not giving up no matter in what circumstances you are. Although, my writing is not free of mistake I would be glad to get handy advice to pick what road should I pick
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